I did make big deal out of things...

I gave too much importance to the things when I was pursuing them, but once I have them I have realized there is not much of difference in the world now and before. Everything around me is same. Overdreaming is in my habit.

To reach here I had turned things upside down in my life, sometimes I wonder what if I have let my life flown as it is. I would never know how it was meant to be. Why did I make big deal out of things...

As a human, I would never run out of the things I can pursue. I still have the choice of letting my life flow or to intervene. I am wondering, am I making big deal out of things?

London

Hurray!!! I got one of my wish list item, visiting abroad. I am here in London. So far so good, I have found London to be global. Visiting Oxford Street on Boxing Day was a good experience. It made me realize a sale is sale whether in London or Noida. Though 10 days leave at the start of an onsite assignment was bit difficult to digest, no group of friends around to hang out I still had a good time, met couple of old buddies, made some new and visited few places. Fireworks at London Eye was a experience of its kind, after standing four hours straight with icy cold weather it was worth waiting. Over the next few weekends I am planning to visit some famous places. Last week I visited Madame Tussuad's museum, what a place you can get yourself pictured with stars, good thing is they don't move and you can get as many pictures as you want.

The best of part of the city is nobody bothers what you are up to as long as you are not offending someone. London has customs of its own. Its very unlike of how people taunt of west as "open-cultured" back home. People are very broad-minded but well cultured. If somebody gets in your way even at tube station they will say 'sorry'. Sneezing and coughing in office is awkward. You can kiss on the road but don't dare to stare at someone. Nobody on the job is servant here, they are all here to help.

I arrived here in winters. It dawns at 7.30 am and sets at 3.30 pm, short days. I am enjoying each one of them. Signing off as of now, will write back whenever feel to do so. Of course, I can not write all the funny things we do here ;)

Few hidden things in life

Few inconspicuous (hidden) things and I never read about them anywhere, think:

• A person walking on the road will always react to car swifting by causing him a bit of trouble as "There is no place for people to walk". While if he is driving the car and someone walking comes in his way he will get irritate and say "Can people see such a big car is coming behind, can't they make way?"
• In Gym, if you praise someone for his good physique, he will tight his muscles and say "should have seen six months back..." In Hindi "Che mahine pehle dekhni thi... ab toh kam ho gayi hai..." :))
• In a tenant-landlord relationship, landlord will always have upper hand. No matter who has a point.
• Husband/Boyfriend has to seek pardon first, doesn't matter whose mistake was it.
• You will always find most "difficult to talk" people in PR jobs where they are needed least. At least in Govt. of India :)

Flaws of Perfection...

Perfection has its own flaws. It may idealise a particular thing, but affects others negatively in parallel. I found this when I completed one of my assignment at work putting all my efforts for straight eight months in that assignment for making it "Perfect", it was delivered at its best. Later, when people were asked for their opinion about my work, opposite to my expectation of receiving bombshells of accolades, many of colleauges used these word "He is good, works well, but.... " and that's what made me realise your strive for perfection creates troubles amongst others, especially when you are working in a team and they do not share the same spirit. How perfect perfection might be, it brings some side-effects. You have to sacrifice relationships for being perfect or sometimes you never start something waiting for that perfect moment and it never comes making things even worse. All your life you pray for life to become perfect never realizing present one is best for you.

Clearly, we should look for excellence and live life in a balance.

Temptation..

1. You get attracted towards doing it
2. You know it is not good to go further
3. You take a step back and start thinking ''I will not do it..''
4. You keep your promise and don't do that for next 10-15 days
5. Then, you again get tempted: You break your promise and do that
6. When you are done, you are filled with shame and think you will never do it again
7. Few days later, you go to the step 1

And life keeps going. These steps fit into many places in life.

Pendulum of Luck

"Pendulum of Luck" is the theory which I have decided to call it. This is based on my own experience with success and failure. Suppose, center of the pendulum lies the success and at its extreme ends lies failure. Then luck is the string oscillating between success and failure. This pendulum oscillates all through the life and depending upon what point our luck is we succeed or fail. No matter, what effort we put across, result is dependent on which point the string of our luck is at that point in time. There is no way everyone can be successful or fail all the time. It just that success and failure are alternative. We gotta keep working.

Wonderful Thought

I recently came across some wonderful lines for anger management. "We think our only options to deal with anger are either swallow it or float it on someone's face but there is a third option, just let it go. And only when we do that and it is really gone then we can move forward." Wonderful thought.

Letting anger go can help in reducing weight from your heart. People would know you don't care. Many a times there is no point in fighting / dragging issues. Giving up something for someone dearer is a great feeling in itself. But I think letting anger go when it is needed or not getting angry when required is poor habit in itself.

I would follow these lines whenever possible.

Varunvita

I have spend two wonderful years of my life with around 10 wonderful people in my college. As it should be, all of us were different in our approach towards life and thats what made it awesome. I frequently recall once incident which happened in our one day trip to Panshet dam. At that time I used to have habit of customizing everything for no reason. Everynight at our cafeteria there were two kinds of milk with bournvita sold: Cold n Hot. But I used to buy the third kind: Warm, a mix of cold n warm and thats not where I used to end this, over that customization of one and a half spoon sugar and kind of spoon: plastic/ steel and its size. And by that one of these friends coined this term "Varunvita" for this special bournvita. I always remember this whenever I drink milk or bournvita. My friends made me feel special. Thanks mate :))

Its time to decide now...

From the childhood fantasies to teenager's wishes, from college dreams to corporate aspirations... my mind has been full of to-be and to-do items. Of course, not all the wishes came true, most of them died because of lack of feasibility. But looking back I see of all wishes possible I could achieve only few. Doing the right assessment of what life has offered me and what I have achieved, I have missed a lot of things being indecisive. I have taken abrupt decisions where I needed to stay firm. Fortunately, some of them have been very fruitful, some were sour.

Career has been one of the most important thing in my life. I have made a lot of sacrifice to be here. Today, I stand at starting point of multiple journeys of which I have to choose one. I feel its high time I decide where to go in life. Choosing between the options troubles me the most. Back in highschool, I never knew this exercise will go all through life. But now that I have realized I also know the earlier I choose better it is. I have to choose which field I got to make my career in.

One more New Year....

Bringing several ups and downs, 2009 has finally passed through. We all need reasons to celebrate, as I remember since last 10 years I and people around me party at 31st Dec night, get up late on 1st Jan and start living normal life. The only change new year brings is for first two weeks we make mistakes in writing year part of date. Like some of us will write coming 10th Jan as 10-01-09 instead of 10-01-10. Hehe...

But, what I like about welcoming new year is it gives us time to pause and think through our actions-inactions of passing year. Though I believe we hardly learn anything from this analysis; (what helps us really is how we felt immidiately after certain experience) New year gives us opportunity to reduce the weightage of bitter experiences and hopes for positive ones.

One interesting and tempting myth about new year is you will keep doing the same thing you do it on first day of year. No, I tried several times even doing blast at first day results in spending rest 364 taking exams, attending lectures, office etc. Can't help it. BTW this myth also holds true for BDay. I wonder how many of us do the same things on both the days??

Resolutions: All of us take at least 2-3 resolutions each year. I am sure roughly 2% of people would be able to keep their resolutions. Ask smokers, they know best.

Horoscopes: People like me who are expecting some change in their life, go through all websites, newspapers where we can read positives in the coming year. Though, we know all signs will contain same story different words.

Holidays: As soon as year starts ending, we start scanning through next year's calender in thirst of holidays. What disappoints us is conflicts and festival on weekends. As a child (secretely admitting still) I check what day Bdays are falling.

Parties: Every closing or new year, we put loads of efforts planning and executing worth memorising parties. As I said in the begining we need reasons to celebrate.

I quoted some of the points coming to my mind at this point in time. Surely, new year brings us happiness and joy. With this, I wish you all A HAPPY N BLASTING N PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR :) ... hope this year will remain blasting till 2011 joins us.

Time to get rewards

Its been 17 months of efforts in spite of knowing results are affected by major other factors. I have tried every possible way to make odds in my favour but don't know what is written. It will take two-three more days to know what luck says.

In last 17 months I have learnt things are not the way as it seems in early days, obviously LIFE is much tougher. If we ask a school child or college boy, how will you solve a tough problem or situation, I am sure answer will come by more hardwork. What they do not know is there are other factors which might neglect your hardwork like force on a object at 0 degree while trying to displace it. What I mean is it is not only hardwork that matters, you have to set a lot of things right. The list is endless but top on the list are people.

It is people's will which drives our life majorly. Think: To the hospital we were born in, school, college, restaurents, house, friendships, love or even the crematorium, it would be people's will. Our work is only to sail in river or pond we are put in and to pass through it with crests and troughs. May be in our own style but all of us have either pass through or sunk in it :) Now think of this river or pond as the opportunities in life, only few of them are grabbed by us, most of them are granted by our parents, friends, teachers, seniors or by luck.

In this time, although I GOT several such opportunities.... and have performed, I have also paved through situations to turn people's will to give me the opportunities, there also I again performed. Now it is the time to get the rewards, time to pluck the fruit. Is it rippen? Was I able to negotiate with one of the major factor other than hardwork to win? Will update you in a day or two.

Wanna break out...

It's a metro. There are only 2 McDs here. Only one mall (City Centre). Overloaded online ticket booking for bollywood movies. Sweating climate. Rare no. of guys clean shaved, no gals on scooties. No appreciation of beauty, no handsomeness admired. Dishes written in starters are served after maincourse. Man-woman remains distant as they are lying in separate toilets.

Its a peaceful place. But whats the point without a life.

Wanna break out guys...wanna break out.